30 day challenge - day 15

day 15 - put your ipod on shuffle, first 10 songs that play. (disclaimer: I'm an avid nsync fan however I do listen to other music but half of the music disappeared on my iPod one day ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

1. nsync - it makes me ill
2. nsync - its gonna be me
3. britney spears - overprotected
4. eminem - as the world turns
5. jc chasez - she got me
6. britney spears - toxic
7. nsync - girlfriend
8. michael jackson - man in the mirror
9. owl city - fireflies
10.nsync - bringin da noise

30 day challenge - day 14

day 14 - a picture of you and your family.

Well my family doesn't like taking pictures. So it would be rare for me to find one on my laptop with all of us together.  So there's one of my siblings and I at MGM Hollywood Studios last year on Christmas day. (I swear I felt my eyes tear up, I miss Disney.)

EFFFFF you AT&T Wireless Go Phone

I was all excited to finally be mobile again but you had to pull the freaking rug from beneath my feet.

Yes, I freaking understand that I lost my number (I wasn't able to pay it), but what I don't understand is why can't you just give me another freaking number. Why can't you make it easy for those of us who don't have cars and have access to a AT&T store.

Eff you! I supported your damn company for years both with a contract and without but now I am taking my business elsewhere.

#46

Try the new Magnum Ice Cream.

I have been wanting to try this since I first saw the commercial with Rachel Bilson on television. But everytime I wanted to buy it, the price was ridiculous and being on a tight budget I just couldn't imagine paying so much for only 3 bars. (funny thing is I would most likely pay the same amount for one Mickey Ear Bar from Disney) Anyways, last week my "mother-in-law" and boyfriend went to Walgreens and came back with 2 boxes because they were finally on sale.

We got Double Caramel and the website describes it as "Silky vanilla bean ice cream enrobed in a luscious chocolatey coating, rich caramel sauce, and thick Belgian milk chocolate." Let me tell you, if you like chocolate and caramel you will LOVE this. It was so rich and delicious. My "mother-in-law" said it was "bueno pero halfway through she wanted to stop eating because it's so rich and sweet" but she didn't.

It's definitely a feel good treat that I would purchase again.

(will edit later to add price)

At 3:30 am, my boyfriend woke me up because I was breathing weird. I don't know how I was breathing but I hope it's not nothing serious. I don't have insurance.

30 day challenge - day 13

day 13 - a letter to someone who recently hurt you

Well I don't interact with a bunch of people per say to actually be hurt by someone. Although I do feel pushed aside and forgotten and that causes me to be hurt but then again that might just be me being oversensitive. I often feel "pushed aside and left out". It has nothing to do with a certain crowd. I just can't relate to what is going on although I wish I could relate. Boy do I wish I could relate so I can join in on the conversation without looking stupid but it just isn't my time yet. But that doesn't really apply here, does it?

Anyway I guess I could write a letter to my mom...she's hurt me a lot although it wasn't recent. I still think of it.

Dear Mother,
I'm upset with you because you didn't wish me a happy birthday. Don't even try to use the excuse that my phone is off - there are several other outlets you can contact me on. I was at least expecting an email from you but I didn't get that.

In a way, I guess it isn't that bad because I was more upset with you 2 years ago, when you ruined my birthday by telling me I haven't amounted to nothing and my boyfriend will leave me because I'm "too old" for him. That really hurt me and perhaps thats why these past two years since, I've been completely depressed for my birthday because "i'm nothing" I'm not a mother. I'm not married. I'm jobless. I don't have my own place. but you know what, take a look at yourself. You left your children. Your children don't even want to speak to you, your lucky I talk to you when I do. You're not married either and your boyfriend told you that you had to lose weight before the two of you got married. And if i recall you're not working either and you don't own your own place. So if you're gonna point the finger, there are three pointed back at you.

That hurt me the most when you left, you tore our family apart. You ruined everything and for what? Some guy that you thought you were still in love with after 20 years? Yea. Whatever.

Do you really think I like hearing you tell me "you always tried to leave" and "you only loved my dad as a friend"?

I try to push my anger aside and keep in touch with you because you are my mom and if something happened to you. I would be upset that I didn't keep in touch. But sometimes, talking to you just really upsets me. I wish what happened never happened but we can't change time.

30 day challenge - day 12

day 12 - how you found out about blogger

Well, I discovered blogger through YouTube and the beauty community. I originally started a blog to do beauty posts but I always felt like I didn't "fit in" with the beauty community because I wasn't on the same skill level, didn't use the same products and didn't have many readers. Overtime, I gave up on my beauty blog because I figured it was a lost cause but eventually began using this blog as an outlet for my thoughts. If I don't have any readers, so be it.



BUT I want to say thank you to nat for being my first follower :)

I hope I have this blog for years to come because I never realized it before but I like free writing not so much assigned writing.

30 day challenge - day 11

day 11 - another picture of you and your friends

Well technically the only friend I hang out with on a regular basis is my boyfriend, Loro. As I probably mentioned before I don't hang out or have "friends" in this state. One friend lives in Hawaii and the other one still lives in Florida. now I mostly associate with my online friends from the DIS and Twitter/YouTube. Here is the most recent picture my boyfriend and I have taken together, it's from my birthday.

Honey Walnut Shrimp

I've been wanting to try to make Honey Walnut Shrimp since I first had it from Panda Express when I was in PR earlier this year.I finally attempted to make it this pass Monday. I used this recipe Of course it didn't turn out exactly like Panda Express but still pretty good and Loro and his mom said they would eat it again. So I notch crossed off for #3 on my 101 in 1001, now for pic spam of shrimp.

 

iPod shuffle tag

INSTRUCTIONS: 
1. Put your iPod or other music player on shuffle. 
(I used my Windows Media Player because my iPod is dead)
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! 

4. Tag those who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from. 


-IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY 


   Are you that somebody? - Aaliayah

-WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? 


     The Grind - Drake

-WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? 

     I don't wanna cry - Mariah Carey


-WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? 


     Friend Like Me - Aladdin Soundtrack

-WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? 

     Obsessed - Mariah Carey


-WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK of You? 

     Can you feel the love tonight? - Lion King Soundtrack


-WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? 

     Catch Me - Nicki Minaj


-WHAT IS 2+2? 

     Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis


-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? 


     You got it bad - Usher

-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? 

     I'm not okay (I promise) - My Chemical Romance


-WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? 

     Battlefield - Jordin Sparks



-WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?? 

     When a Woman Loves  - R. Kelly


-WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? 

     Can't help falling in love - Disney's Greatest Hits #1



-WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? 
     Something that I want - Tangled Soundtrack



-WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? 
     Still got it - Drake



-WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? 


     The Usual - Drake

-WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? 
     I want to know what love is - Mariah Carey



-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? 


    Yo-ho! (A pirate's life for me) - Pirates of the Caribbean Sountrack

-WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? 

     Rock Your Body - Justin Timberlake


-HOW WILL YOU DIE? 

   Welcome to my life - Simple Plan


-WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? 

     Billionare - Travis Mccoy


-WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
     Bring me to life - Evenescance



-WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? 
     Marry You - Bruno Mars



-WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
     Blow your mind - nicki Minaj



-WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
     Thank God I found you - Mariah Carey



-DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
     Superbass - nicki Minaj 



-IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? 
     Lovestoned - Justin Timberlake



-WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
     Kingdom dance - Tangled Soundtrack

stop and relax

"everyone has to deal with bad news, difficult people, and disappointments. But it’s not really the stuff that happens, but how you deal with it that really matters. In short, you are in control. Basically, you can overreact, blow things out of proportion, and believe that everything is a big deal. Or, you can change a couple of habits, reevaluate your perspective, and make life seem easier." source: personal development

 I need to remember this whenever I get irritated with what ever dilemma is getting me upset.  Yes, sometimes life doesn't always go as planned but eventually (even though it seems like eventually will be never) things will turn around and get better. I need to learn to not overreact in the moment and just take it all in stride. Besides, no one wants to deal with grumpy ChiChi.

30 day challenge - day 10

day 10 - songs you listen to when you're happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

Well any mood I'm in I tend to listen to NSYNC or Justin Timberlake to get in a better mood. But to answer this prompt properly...this is what i currently listen to when I'm...

happy - Till the World ends - Britney Spears
sad - Can't give up now - Mary Mary
bored - any Disney song
hyped - I got a feeling - Black eyed Peas
mad - Rolling in the deep - Adele

101 in 1001

Well I've seen this list of 101 challenges to do in 1001 days on the blogs of Emily and Heather. I figured since I want to make more use of my blog and I tend to "make" goals but never "follow-through" with said goals, it'd be a challenge in itself for me to continue to use my blog and follow-through with my goals. It may be a challenge for me to just come up with 101 things I want to do. Maybe that will be first on my list (haha). So today Saturday, August 13, 2011 I began the challenge and I'm in the process of coming up with 101 things to do accomplish 1001 days from today. That date will be Saturday, May 10, 2014. My list can be found at the top of my blog or by clicking here. Any goal that is accomplished will be made into a blog post with the tag "101 in 1001". If for some reason a goal cannot be accomplished it will be crossed through. 

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I've seen a few blogs with this list of 101 challenges to do in 1001 days. I figured since I want to make more use of my blog and I tend to "make" goals but never "follow-through" with said goals, it'd be a challenge in itself for me to continue to use my blog and follow-through with my goals. It may be a challenge for me to just come up with 101 things I want to do. Maybe that will be first on my list (haha). So today's date is Saturday, August 13, 2011 and 1001 days from today will be Saturday, May 10, 2014. Accomplished goals will be crossed out and/or have a link to a post about how it happened or the process of it happening. So here they are, in no particular order...

1.   come up with 101 things I want to accomplish
2.   send snail mail to 5 people
3.   try 5 new recipes
4.   bake 5 "different" cakes
5.   make a scrapbook
6.   get a new phone
7.   ride a train
8.   lose 30 lbs.
9.   stop over-eating (Eat smaller portions and no seconds for a whole week.)
10. graduate with Associates' degree for Early Childhood Development
11.  begin Bachelors' degree for Education
12.  see a Disney show LIVE (Disney on Ice)
13.  stay on Disney property with Loro
14.  have a real vacation with Loro
15.  eat Hibachi
16.  attend my sister's graduation
17.  get a pedicure with my "mother-in-law"
18.  dye my hair
19.  get new glasses (and contacts)
20.  go to dentist
21.  read 5 books by new authors
22.  buy a printer

23.  start final papers or projects ahead of time
24.  finish 30 day makeup challenge on my beauty blog finished 52 week nail challenge
25.  watch at least one scary movie with Loro without complaining
26.  find my perfect foundation
27.  go to bed before 12am for an entire week
28.  send a surprise to my aunt(s)
29.  back up everything on my laptop
30.  get a car
31.  walk to store even when we get a car
       (at least once a week, although that won't happen in winter)
32.  get our own place (apartment or house) or move out of tiny cramped apartment
33.  buy a hamper
34.  meet some of my online friends in person
35.  have a cream puff at Wisconsin State Fair
36.  buy some winter clothes (coat, boots, etc)
37.  change my nail polish daily for one week
38.  stay caught up on all the TRs I'm reading on the DIS
39.  get engaged
       (out of my control ;) but it'll be fun to see if it happens within 1001 days)
40.  start and finish project 365 here on my personal blog
41.  finish current 30 day challenge
42.  watch Lord of the Rings
43.  have a lazy day with Loro
44.  buy a pair of white heels
45.  accessorize my outfits for a whole week
46.  try the new Magnum ice cream
47.  begin working as a PCW for Loro's aunt
48.  get back on birth control
49.  learn to deal with my "stress" better, don't let little things bother me
50.  go to a bar with Loro
51.  try a new drink
52.  become more comfortable with speaking Spanish with my boyfriend's family
53.  volunteer at an elementary school
54.  IM, talk or text with my sister every day her whole senior year
55.  drink coffee without milk (at least once)
56.  don't let laundry pile up
57.  wear hair down for full day
58.  buy light sweaters for layering
       (black, white, grey, pink, navy blue, tan, cream)
59.  wear makeup for entire week (and take photos for beauty blog)
60.  eat at Chick-Fil-a (there isn't one near me)
61.  eat at 5 guys burgers (never ate there before)
62.  try Monfongo 
63.  eat alcapurria (it's been forever since I ate this)
64.  buy a new laptop or computer (for myself)
65.  do sets of crunches and squats (have a routine)
66.  don't drink soda for whole week
67.  buy scrubs for when I start working as a PCW
68.  go to Summerfest
69.  have a baby (I say this because I want to have a baby before I'm 31)
70.  watch Chronicles of narnia 
71.  catch up on OTH, Grey's, House, and any other show I missed
72.  read PLL series
73.  do boyfriend tag with Loro
74.  buy bake ware
75.  buy some Lush products
76.  buy some Yankee Candles
77.  order from Candles by Victoria
78.  buy a new camera 
79.  finish Hair, nails and skin vitamins before they expire
80.  visit the "Chicago Bean" (Cloud Gate)
81.  see Breaking Dawn part 1 on opening night (November 18, 2011)
82.  see Breaking Dawn part 2 on opening night (November 16, 2012)
       (yes. I like Twilight that much and if its possible to go, I will be there)
83.  get more followers on my blog(s)
84.  figure out how to make "perfect" pina coladas at home 
85.  get rest of polish sent from my dad's
86.  use blog(s) often
87.  get 2nd hole in ears
88.  buy a Coach purse
89.  be able to do a (right) split again
90.  get my credit score (or find out what I owe)
91.  (begin) pay off my debt
92.  work at a daycare or elementary school
93.  don't eat candy for whole week
94.  drink 5 cups of water a day for whole week
95.  do a giveaway on my beauty blog
96.  buy a cute pair of white summer sandals
97.  buy a DSi
98.  take a dance class
99.  go to a water park
100. guess I should learn to swim ^
101.be able to get a contract phone again or get a smartphone

30 day challenge - day 9

day 9 - something you're proud of in the past few days

Well since I'm a loser-bum that doesn't work, there's really not much to do that I can be proud of. Oh, actually there is something I am quite proud of. Back in May, I received an email to join Alpha Beta Kappa Honor Society. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to join because I didn't have money to pay the membership fee but I took the birthday money I had and used that. This morning I dropped the application with the new membership fee in the mailbox, so in 4-6 weeks, I'll be receiving my new membership packet. (i'm not quite sure what all is in it, I have to look at the email again.) So that. I am proud of.

On August 11, I found out that a family friend (my mom's friend) passed away from colon cancer. What's awful is that I lost contact with her when my mother left. The last time I thought of this person was on their birthday (the day before mine) and how I wished I could get ahold of her. I remember this person being at all my birthday parties and holiday dinners. She would sometimes drive me to La Patite in the morning before school when my parents had to work early. She would help me with my math homework because she loved math. I remember always knocking my cup over when we went out to eat at Red Lobster but she never yelled at me even though I knew she was tired of it.

Although she wasn't necessarily my friend, she was like family to me. It's something terrible that contact was lost.

Yes, possibly I could have kept in contact myself but it would have been an awkward situation because every time she (or anyone else from the church) saw me they wanted to know if I heard from my mom or how my dad and siblings were doing. I didn't want to talk about my mom and my dad didn't want everyone in his business.

However when I found out she passed away, I felt guilty and I regret not staying in touch with her (and other people from church). Even though I still don't want all the gossip folk in my business asking questions, I think I may try to get in touch with them again.

R.I.P Joan, you will be missed. I'm sorry I lost touch.

30 day challenge - day 8

day 8 - short term goals for this month and why

Well August is only 11 days in...

1.) Move on (stop waiting) and get a job. If it's taken this long (almost 3 months) for the company I'm waiting for to call me back, it's time to move on and get a different job no matter how convenient the other job is right now. I'm tired of being broke and not being able to shop or go out.

2.) See Friends with Benefits. I would love love love to see this movie before it's out of theaters but most likely can't be done until goal 1 is met.

3.) Pay membership fee for Honor Society. Since I'm using the birthday money I got, I should have no problem getting this done. All I need to do is get an envelope and stamp. 

4.) Walk at least 4 times a week. So i can be active and drop a few pounds.

5.) Start final projects early. Preferably first week of term, so I have a real head start. This is always a goal for myself yet I never cross it off my list.

6.) Stop feeling so negative about myself. I need to stop beating myself up.

7.) Regain my positive outlook. I hate that I've become such a "Debby Downer". I make myself more miserable for dwelling over things that I have no control over. Although things aren't picture perfect and things aren't going exactly how I imagined they would be I should be grateful for what I have.

30 day challenge - day 7

wow, I'm 7 days in. 

day 07- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Well since I'm in a depressed mood right now, I really can't think of anyone or anything that has had a big impact on me. Maybe I'll revisit this day when I'm not so bitter and have a positive outlook on things. What's the point of anything having a big impact on life when it seems like nothing good will ever happen. It seems like everyday is filled with some type of disappointment. Plans don't fall through and variable x is always in the way.

Random photos

I'm thinking about doing project 365 again. But I won't conquer that til I finish this 30 day challenge I'm currently working on. So since I'm not doing project365 yet, here's some random photos that I snapped. None of them are completely random but just jumbled all in a post together.

lemon pepper (butter) chicken

Virgin mojito

my nail polish peeled off like stickers, all 10 of them

my birthday present from my dad

bet you can't guess what this is...

it's masa (pre-mixed) for pasteles. it looks gross like this but in the end it tastes m bueno.uy

more of my nail polish collection that was at my dad's

30 day challenge - day 6

Day 6 - favorite superhero and why
Hmmmm, I really don't have a favorite superhero but I guess if I had to pick one it might be Spiderman because I like the movies and I watched (almost) the whole cartoon series with my boyfriend.