I don't know what to call this post or whether it should have a title or not. I do know that I'm aching for a baby. I get so sad when I see pregnant women in the stores but yet I torture myself reading or watching pregnancy blogs. I longingly stare at mothers bonding with their children imagining the day where my child smiles up at me because she made me proud. I overhear mothers talking about what daycare their child goes to and how they deal with leaving them. I try to block out voices when mothers are sharing pictures of how cute their baby looked when they were born. I want that to be me. I want to be pregnant. I want to have a baby of my own. My heart is aching as I type this up. I just feel incomplete.

The hard part is knowing that now is not the right time to bring a baby in for us. That's why BF tells me he's not ready. But is it even possible to be 100% ready for a baby? The way I see it the baby will be loved, fed and warm with a roof over her head. Yet I take a step back from the baby talk and force down those pills every night.

12/12/12

Here's my phone at 12:12pm on 12/12/12 and what a coincidence...Goofy is wearing a hat. The hat is good for #FMSphotoadaychallenge.

Dec 1 -

8:00 PM - I was watching The Walking Dead with my boyfriend.

Nov 15 Photo a day

First...

Wooo!! I got my tickets in advance for Breaking Dawn part 2. I'm sort of bummed that I can't go to midnight showing of the movie but it's for a good reason. This year I have a job to be at 9 am. Since I'm not a morning person and I have to be alert while on the job, I don't think it would be in my best interest to go even though I want to so bad. At least I'm going on opening day, sporting the same shirt I wore last year. ;)

Okay now for the photo of the day...what's in my bag?

It looked somewhat neat didn't it? Well,let it be said that I work with children. That's my excuse for carrying around bubbles and a little wooden toy tricycle.

Nov 4 thur Nov 14 - photo a day

Nov 4 - TV (Watching Once Upon a Time with my guy)

Nov 5 - 5 o'clock - most days at 5 I'm working, no picture to take then because cameras are not allowed on the job. 

Nov 6 - A favorite thing, my current favorite thing is this makeup palette by Wet n Wild

Nov 7 - Reflection

Nov 8 - Something you do everyday (play with my pup)

Nov 9 - Small (the last small bite of my sandwich)

Nov 10 - Can't {won't} live without - My guy :) and nail polish ;)

Nov 11 - Night

Nov 12 - Drink

Nov 13 - Where I slept

Nov 14 - Man-Made (Everything in the pic but the dog)

Photo a Day - Nov 3

Breakfast - Ah! I was so happy it was Saturday because it's my day off and although I didn't sleep in comfortably like I wanted. I had a delicious breakfast so my morning wasn't too bad.

forgot to snap a pic before I started eating

I thought it was funny how my pup was laying on the floor. I don't think it's funny how he's sleeping under my chair right now and is really gassy.

Tonight I wanted to be experimental for dinner again, so I followed this curry recipe. It turned out pretty good but wasn't too spicy. I'm alright with that because I like spicy food but was expecting a little more of a kick. Next time I make curry, I want to try itsjudytime's recipe on Benjimantv's channel.

meal made completely by me! I normally don't make the rice

And speaking of itsjudytime, my boyfriend found Tim Tams for me today at Target!! This was actually the only reason I wanted to go to Target. He ended up going on his own and picked them up for me! Boy was I happy when he showed them to me!

Nov Photo A Day - 2

Colour - Picked up a full size of this fabulous green by Essie called Mojito Madness. Bonus! I only paid $4 for it!